i’m a good actor. growing up, the best acting i ever did wasn’t on the set.

I’ve talked to my sister about it, and it’s like she grew up in a different family than I did.

I wonder if my mother convinced herself that, because he wasn’t hitting me or leaving marks on me, that he wasn’t abusive. And I wonder if, having made that choice, the emotional abuse and endless cruelty was that much easier to ignore.

If I’m being honest, the thing that hurts the most is knowing that my parents had unconditional love to give, because I saw them give it freely to my siblings.

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